{This is a pity party post. I'm sure there will be lots of eye rolls and "oh come, on" muttered from my readers, so bear with me}
I'm feeling lots of Envy and Stress this week and I hate that feeling.
Why?
Sometimes I feel that other peoples lives are just so much easier than mine. Part of it stems from the neighborhood wanting SAHM's only to be on the volunteer committee because they have more time. Their words, not mine. Part of it is true. I'm all over the place but I'd make time, I would.
Part of it, from that, is my sister-in-law, who is a SAHM, went on vacation in Mexico with her Hubs while their sole and only child (they don't want anymore & this one was a mistake) is away at Grandma's. Her vacation is because, per her Mom, my MIL, she's stressed and needed time to relax.
Insert sigh.
Then comes the stress part.
My babysitting set up is going to have to change, pronto. My parents took in my 40 something year old brother who is moving back from Houston. He's going through court battles and a divorce. Yeah. And at the moment, my kiddos can't be around or in that situation. So, I'm scrambling for day cares. My mom did offer to come over to my house but do I take her up on that offer?
Luckily, my MIL has backing us 100% and offered to help wherever and whenever she can. I love the idea but I know how tiring my kids can be. I totally get that she is offering but probably doesn't expect me to take up her offer.
And then, I go back to the envy part. Where I wonder if the SAHMs in my neighborhood OR SIL have to deal with any of these things?
I'm sure they do on a totally different level. And I'm not belittling the situation, it's just different.
Add in job stress as well. I'm in this constant worry that I'll be laid off any day now. Price of barrel per day is falling lower and lower than we'd like to see. So now I wait and just figured, there's nothing really I can do. Just wait & if something DOES happen, take my severance package...apply for unemployment...then try like heck to get a job.
See, I'm not a good person to be around this week.
Just a total Debbie Downer.
I'll be better soon, I promise. Everyone is allowed a few pity parties every now and then. We just have to pick ourselves up and realize, there is someone out there that has it way worse than you.
Part of it, from that, is my sister-in-law, who is a SAHM, went on vacation in Mexico with her Hubs while their sole and only child (they don't want anymore & this one was a mistake) is away at Grandma's. Her vacation is because, per her Mom, my MIL, she's stressed and needed time to relax.
Insert sigh.
Then comes the stress part.
My babysitting set up is going to have to change, pronto. My parents took in my 40 something year old brother who is moving back from Houston. He's going through court battles and a divorce. Yeah. And at the moment, my kiddos can't be around or in that situation. So, I'm scrambling for day cares. My mom did offer to come over to my house but do I take her up on that offer?
Luckily, my MIL has backing us 100% and offered to help wherever and whenever she can. I love the idea but I know how tiring my kids can be. I totally get that she is offering but probably doesn't expect me to take up her offer.
And then, I go back to the envy part. Where I wonder if the SAHMs in my neighborhood OR SIL have to deal with any of these things?
I'm sure they do on a totally different level. And I'm not belittling the situation, it's just different.
Add in job stress as well. I'm in this constant worry that I'll be laid off any day now. Price of barrel per day is falling lower and lower than we'd like to see. So now I wait and just figured, there's nothing really I can do. Just wait & if something DOES happen, take my severance package...apply for unemployment...then try like heck to get a job.
See, I'm not a good person to be around this week.
Just a total Debbie Downer.
I'll be better soon, I promise. Everyone is allowed a few pity parties every now and then. We just have to pick ourselves up and realize, there is someone out there that has it way worse than you.
